It hits me hard . It's debilitating . I just hate myself . I feel miserable . Whatever I do is useless . Since a kid , I just can't do anything right . And after 17 years I still didn't change . I'm one of the human being who fail to do big or little things . It's unbelievable that sometime others can bear with it . What's wrong with me ? Now , everything is clear that those braveness I say was just an ego .